N D E

I’ve been trying something new for about a little over a month now, and I’m not sure how to process it just yet. But I need to write about.

Back in September, I explained the way I sleep. It wasn’t until my kids were much older, late teens / young adults, that I found out not everyone sleeps this way. 

Over the years I’ve referred to it as ‘sleep thinking” 

Lately, I’ve gone back and forth wondering  if it’s possible to find ‘myself’ during sleep thinking. 

What if I go to sleep and think about my ‘other’ self? Go looking for her in my sleep. 

Not astral travel, or bilocating, or remote viewing. 

When I look for answers during sleep thinking, they are already in my mind. I don’t have to leave myself to find them. Or at least I don’t think I do. 

So off and on for about a week now, while I sleep, I’ve looked for myself. 

Last night, just as my sleep thinking was winding down, I sensed it. It wasn’t me, like the me I am now. It was just this strange sort of energy of me.

Have you ever known something was there, but you couldn’t see it? Maybe someone standing on the other side of the wall. You know they are there. You can sense their presence. But you can’t see them. 

Like that. 

I felt slightly afraid, or maybe nervous is a better word. But I also felt calm enough that it didn’t disrupt my sleep thinking. 

In my mind I asked “why is all of this happening?”

Idk why I asked that, but that was the question.

And the answer wasn’t a spoken one. It was like a really fast slideshow of these weirdly distorted flash cards. Almost as if it was an index, shuffling through these memories or visions that are stored in my brain.

Then I don’t remember anything after that.

I just slept. Like real sleep. The kind of sleep that normal people sleep. The kind my kids have always explained to me.

I woke up at 6:30am, sat up on the side of the bed and this thought, or message, was clear as day in my mind….

For more than 25 years, myself and my family have had some sort of experience every 2-3 years or so.

But since the mauling…since the ‘tall man’ interjected…they are happening more frequently. 

Then in my mind I saw 3 letters 

N 

D

E

I have no idea what any of this means. But I know those 3 letters are significant to the mauling and to the interjection of the tall man. 

Hopefully I’ll find the answer later on down the road.

Lola

9 responses to “N D E”

  1. ursulathen Avatar
    ursulathen

    N D E is Near Death Experience – if you search it on YouTube you’ll find a LOT of videos, but not sure if you’ll find anything that relates to your particular situation.

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    1. Lola Avatar
      Lola

      A friend of mine text me last night after reading the post and she said the same thing. I’ve started reading some tonight, but like you said…I’ve not been able to find much that really relates to my situation. But I’ll keep looking.

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  2. loudlyinventivef5259db1d6 Avatar
    loudlyinventivef5259db1d6

    I believe you and I can relate to much of what you say.
    Have you ever thought about generational trauma? It’s a new concept but the stress of dealing with this, that most experts believe is passed down thru DNA can make us sensitive to many things. In other parts of the world this is largely accepted and dealt with through therapies.
    Sounds hokey but your words “my other self” triggered me. There is a show on Netflix. It’s a Turkish drama called “Another Self”. It’s an over dramatization of the phenomenon.
    Check it out.

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    1. loudlyinventivef5259db1d6 Avatar
      loudlyinventivef5259db1d6

      It’s called “constellations therapy.”
      If you google generational trauma, it won’t tell you what I’m trying to describe.

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      1. loudlyinventivef5259db1d6 Avatar
        loudlyinventivef5259db1d6

        And when I say it makes you sensitive. I mean it makes you open to have lots of experiences from the veil, the past lives etc.

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    2. Lola Avatar
      Lola

      For sure about the generational trauma. Its something I’ve considered for a long time as a correlation but I never knew until reading your comment that it was an actual thing

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      1. loudlyinventivef5259db1d6 Avatar
        loudlyinventivef5259db1d6

        Me either. It’s new to me. I’ve learned that many European countries are researching this and fully support it . The show Another Self explores this . The show is Turkish. I live in San Diego and I have found Constellation Therapists here. I don’t know if I have the cotton go. And the $. But many ppl experience visits from ghosts or repressed memories or even just a sense of knowing or anxiety in situations. It’s very powerful. I believe it affects us more than we know. It actually can affect our DNA.

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  3. VB Avatar
    VB

    Go on exploring at your speed 🙂

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  4. delectablybaby223647af34 Avatar
    delectablybaby223647af34

    Fascinating.

    NDE – Near Death Experience. I’ve been obsessively listening to them over the past few months. Look up the channel “Next Level Soul” on YouTube and start there. He has a lot of NDE guests on and gets very in depth with details of their experiences. Also, “The Other Side NDE” is a great channel (my favorite). Jeff Mara’s channel has many worth listening to, as well. There are many, you will find.

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